I think I am going through some "becoming 30 year old" crisis, I am pretty sure, because I feel like I am thinking too much at the moment. What am I doing with my life? Did I do anything useful for the 2 years I have been here? What am I? Am I successful? How do I get successful? How do I compete with all these ambitious people in this city? And I can go on forever.

I am always thinking too much, and trust me if I could stop I would. I am my worst critic, never proud of myself, always comparing to people around me and I never listen to my own advice. I can say that I am not in the place I want to be in life with my career, it just started and yes, I am thankful. But I am also impatient and frustrated to have think that I have such a long journey to get to where I want to be in life.

So, I am pretty sure its some kind of crises and I know all I need is patience, which SUCKS. I hate that word, but its reality and it’s the truth. Truth hurts, but we just have to deal with it….

My goal for right now is to find a solution to be able to live and have patience and make a plan how to reach my goal, rather then looking how people are passing me in measure of success and I feel like I am just far away from them. I will get there, I just don’t know how right now, but I need to figure it out. 

All I want is to be successful!

It was one of those days where you want to burry yourself alive. You know, its been a bad week all over, just bad bad bad. But the only thing good has been my workout, so let me write down my positive things, so I dont complain all the time.

Monday - 40 min run, outside, I ALMOST DIED, too cold

Tuesday – 90 min Hot Yoga (got a bit dizzy at the end)

Wednesday – 40 min run treadmill + strength

Thursday – 30 min interval

Today I did 30 min interval and I wanted to puke, I don’t mind running, but I have not felt anything from running in a while and to see any change I have to be more diverse in my workout so I put this interval in and challenge my body. I WANTED TO DIE, so you basically go FAST as you can for 1 min and step aside for 30 sec and run fast as you can on fast speed for 1 min and you go on. It doesn’t sound bad, but the last minute and half was the worst and I wanted to puke after and that’s a good thing, usually the only thing that makes me tired after working out is swimming and that’s Saturday and that means TOMORROW I AM OFF and maybe Sunday too, well see about that.  I am going to give myself a treat tomorrow, I feel like I deserved it after a crappy emotional week. 

So I also had a bad hair day, but I was rescued by this dry shampoo that my cousin told me about and I felt like it really worked, it gave my hair such a matt clean look. I am impressed.  I am as you know bald these days and eating all I can to grow it back, Omega 3, multivitamin and hair and nail thing. I guess I have to have some patience….GREAT!

Not bad at all, first time I am using a dry shampoo, I orded it online from here.

These are the products that I am using for the moment. I am back with Ole Henriksen and I used Olay for a white, but I like to buy this combo and if it works for you, then why not?

7 steps every night and 6 every morning.

1. Wash and massage my face with face washer, my favorite is this one from Philosophy called purity. 
2. Wipe of all the extra dirt that the cleanser did not remove, I used a simple toner from Sephora. 
3. Toner spray, this helps me hydrate my skin and keep it moist. I used this one for Murad, but Sephora has one that is cheaper and gives the same effect. 

4. A face serum from Ole H and I am addicted to this product and I cant live without it. Not cheap but my baby. 
5. Night gel from Ole H and I dont really know what it does, but it feels good :)
6. Face cream and I love this one, but it has no sp in it, so I have to use another when its sunny outside. 

7. Eye cream from Mac, this is suppose to have cafeine and I think its works fine, I mean I see no wonders, but remember that all these stuff that we put in our faces are for long term, to avoid getting those lines and stuff. 

TAKE CARE OF YOUR SKIN and DONT touch your face with your hands...no no no...mucho bacteria's.

I am so ready for spring, come now please please please. I want to run outside again. I tried to run outside yesterday since the sun was shining and I was dying because it was so cold. I can manage, but I love running in the spring, it’s like butterflies in my belly. I am ready for you spring….

Today, I am doing Hot Yoga, I really need the heat for my neck.

Last weekend was our friend’s 30^th birthday and his girlfriend tried to organize a Snow tubing trip, we did one last year too. But somehow it didn’t work out and it was beyond cold so we all ended up having brunch together, which was fun too.

I am more a summer person, but we had hot coco and thats pretty cozi in times like this.

 

Valentines day is something that is very commercial to me, but when I saw all girls dress up in pink at work, it still makes me smile to see people making an effort to spread some love everywhere (I wore black, head to toe…very catwoman’ish)

I told my hubby its no point of trying to get table anywhere so I wanted to cook a good dinner for him but still something that fits our healthy lifestyle. So I made panfryed white fish (I don’t even remember the name, something fresh from the fish section) and two lobster tails and sweet potato pure. For dessert I had too many chocolate pieces, I mean KOMA was the ending for that night. I had to have a detox Friday because of that. If you put that amazing chocolate in front of my face I am going to stuff it in my face.  

Dinner is served

Tiramisu from my favorite bakery.

A love note from my love

My favorite thing in who whole world is probably sushi and I never get board of it so I found this healthy sushi option at lunch and I am not a big salad eater to be honest, so of you make salad into a sushi, YES I WILL EAT YOU!!!

Wednesday today and that means running day, I went to dinner with work yesterday after two days of intense training and after they took us to a very cute restaurant called Clyde’s and it felt like we were in a cabin in the middle of nowhere, but actually we were just 10 min from my house.

My goal today is to be in bed early and then wake up EARLY on Thursday and try to work out…let see if that will happened. Have not been able to wake up early for a very long time, one of my weaknesses in life (that and Yogurt covered candy (naturgodis).

One part of my lunch...

I found a blog that makes healthy dishes and she had a picture of “Svensk Husman” and the peeps who know me, know that I love my husman. It is something I can make at home, but I never end up doing it. I am trying to get into beach 2013 without starving and eating healthy so I don’t become bald.  But I am totally craving something husman, I doubt my hubby will like it but it could be a good Friday dinner.

Want tips for healthy or Swedish food, visit this young amazing lady at The Food train.

Picture from:  http://thefoodtrain.blogg.se/